January 27, 2011

Expecting the Unexpected

Today marks the first day of my second trimester.  Yes, if you haven't heard yet, we are expecting another new little bundle of joy.  I'm still not sure how this happened.  Well, I know how it happens but I don't know how it happened to us.  It actually took me three weeks before I even took a pregnancy test because I really thought it was an impossibility.  But, sure enough, I had two very positive pregnancy tests.

I spontaneously decided to take a pregnancy test on a morning when Ben was leaving for a business trip.  So, I called him and asked him if he wanted to meet for lunch before his flight took off.  I sprang the news on him while driving to the restaurant.  He didn't believe me when I told him.  But when I broke down crying he then knew that I was serious.  He was sitting there grinning from ear to ear and I was balling my eyes out.

Honestly I'm pretty excited now that I've had time to process it.  My concerns were rather vain and pathetic.  For instance, one of the things I kept thinking after I took the test was that I'm never going to be skinny again.  I had a very hard time losing weight after Jax, well, actually I never did lose the weight.  So, that's been frustrating.  Also, I'm a person that really likes my sleep.  Jax still gets up for night feedings, pregnancy is exhausting, and I'm very anemic.  So that was a major concern.  I'm just worried about the logistics of it all, too - having space, money, time and energy for each child.

However, I'm pretty at peace with it all now.  Life always seems to work out when we just try our best and let God handle the rest.  Interestingly, this has been by far the easiest pregnancy.  And, I'm adjusting to my new weight and size, although it's not fun it does make me really determined to lose the weight after this next baby is born.  So, I'll just have to be patient with myself.  As for Sadie and Jax - I think they'll be elated to have a new playmate.  It will be a hard and tiring few years for Ben and me, but I'm sure the kids will love the excitement of having a new sibling.  Surely women have endured things much more difficult than this but I'm not exactly a super mom or anything.  It will be a challenge, but we'll do our best to enjoy the chaos ;)

So we are expecting the unexpected, but excited and anxious to meet this new baby.  If anyone wants to offer any prayers on my behalf they would be much appreciated.

7 comments:

Valerie said...

Congrats Alicia! Your concerns are totally understandable, but I'm glad your feeling at peace now. Those kiddos are going to have so much fun together. Many mothers say that the more you have, the easier it is b.c. they all entertain themselves :) When are you due?

Alicia said...

Thanks Valerie. I'm due July 28th. That will make Jax and this baby 13 months apart. Wow :)

Jordan and Crystal said...

I bet you are the best mother! It will be hard for sure! But all will be well! Just think the sooner you have your kids the sooner your done and you can be skinny and travel etc ha ha We are coming out there for a week! We will have to try and see ya!

Lori said...

I'm GLAD you've found peace!!! I'm FINDING JOY a little better, now, too! Come over and play sometime!

Kimmy said...

I just realized that I won't see this child till he/she is one and a half years old.

This is a sad, sad thought.

I'm sorry I won't be there for baby number 3 to be born.

Curtis & Shelby said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!

so exciting.

Natalie said...

You are too supermom, Alicia! You do and will continue to do a great job as a mom. Of course we'll pray for you, silly! Love you guys!